Disarm

Sometimes, when I feel any sort of sadness, or uncomforted with whatever might be going on in my life, I either listen to some particular music, or play some. This music is usually something like Gov't Mule, or Philip Sayce, something to take my mind beyond the limits of this world and let me break free from reality for a little while so I can feel good again. The other night, I can't explain why but I just felt sad and sort of empty. Which is absurd and ridiculous because I'm anything but lonely, but it happened anyways. I was listening to The Civil Wars and on my mix, their cover of 'Disarm' by The Smashing Pumpkins came up. This is seriously a must listen. It's one of the most emotional songs I've ever heard, and the way The Civil Wars plays it is so extremely beautiful. So I was listening to this song and felt as if every negative emotion I was having was pulled out of my being and replaced by a feeling of oneness with my life and myself. It was an unexplainable moment and difficult to do it justice. But I cry every time I hear or play this song and it simply makes me feel great. My quest in my musical life is to make at least one song, if not more, that will reach at least one person the way this song reaches out to me. If I can find a way to dig beneath the outer shell of one person and make him/her feel moved and pull emotions from them in such a way that they discover something about themselves, I will feel that I have succeeded.

In other news, I started recording my song 'Trouble' today with the new music for it. I will be as diligent as I can in finishing the recording.